Monday, January 18, 2010

Consciousness Be Gone

Unfortunately my insomnia has gotten the better of me this weekend. I haven't slept more than a few hours for the last few days. I have had worse, 1 week 1 hour of sleep. I'm only on day 3, 8 hours sleep at the moment, but it is really getting to me for some reason.

And before you all tell me to go see a doctor or whatever. I've been and done all that. Any medications that actually do work for me only seem to work a few times. So the expense and hope just ain't worth it.

I have also tried all sorts of exercises and various techniques to help me sleep. I find the best thing for me to do is just relax and not fight being awake. I usually get more rested that way. I say rested because sleep doesn't always come.

I have worried about my health but everything seems to be fine. My doctors don't seem to believe that I don't sleep very much because they say I seem healthy and well rested. Although one of my doctors has said it may just be the way I work. I am just one of a few people in the world that need very little sleep to function normally.

I never sleep very much, If I sleep for at least 4 or 5 hours it is a really good sleep. But I am going through one of the bad periods and it is beginning to interfere with everything. It feels like the hallucinations are going to start soon.

That sounds worse than it is though. It isn't like I see people flying around or fish roosting in trees or anything like that. I start hearing things that I realize probably aren't there. Then come visual things like colours or shadows in the wrong places. Stuff like that. I can still tell whats real and what is just from sleep deprivation so it ain't that bad. A little disconcerting but bearable

The worse thing for me is the sore eyes and the brain unwilling to work properly for usually simple things. You would laugh at some of the words I have needed to spell check for this post. And also I apologize if none of this makes any sense. It does to me. But that's just because it was my disoriented brain doing the thinking

It's almost 3am here at the moment and I have an appointment in the morning but I don't know if I'm going to make it.

I'm going to go try and sleep again. Wish me luck...


  1. Good Luck. Have you tried a sound machine. I go to sleep with the sounds of thunder and ocean breezes.

  2. I can so empathize with you Sophie. (is that your real name?) Ive always had sleep problems but now they are severe in that they effect my whole way of living. I do sleep but I can't sleep in "normal" blocks of time. I sleep in increments of about an hour or so at a time, the longest period being 3 hours if I am lucky...the hours add up to 5 if I am lucky but usually I function on about 4 hours of sleep all together. I am a recovering addict and the sleep issues started when I went into recovery ten years ago and increased in severity until they reached the point Im at now. I wont ramble on here but I can understand how you feel.

  3. Grant - music and sounds just distract me and give me something else to think about.

    50sme - I hope you can get back into a more normal sleep pattern. Maybe you could try and addopt a Polyphasic sleep cycle. Not exactly normal, but it could help you to live your life more normally.
    I have always been this way, ever since I can remember. But it has gotten worse the older I get. I'm used to it now but it does get the better of me from time to time!

  4. Peppermint Tea. Not that crap you buy at HEB. I am talking loose leaf goodness.

  5. Hey Grant;
    I really appreciate the suggestions. It seems you have had a few of your own battles with insomnia.
    I have seriously tried probably all known remedies to insomnia and sleeplessness. I just don't sleep very much!
    I had a few hours last night and I'm feeling much more normal now. Still red eyed but not feeling hopeless as before.